Tuesday Morning

Well it is another beautiful day in the neighborhood and today I am thankful for a scripture in Mormon 9:21 which basically says if you have faith in Christ and ask the Father in the name of Christ it shall be granted you. Now I know I shouldn't ask for trivial things but Moroni's whole point in this chapter is that Heavenly Father has not changed and left us alone to suffer or struggle on our own. But He is a God of miracles and we can ask for His help and He will always give it. So these past few months I have been asking for His help in overcoming my food addiction. I have not been disppointed. He has helped me, strengthened me and this knowledge that He is there makes all the difference! So the fight continues today. When I began this trek, at the encouragement of my sister Liz I weighed 224 pounds. I am now 208 and having a difficult time getting off of 208, but I will get there.

Yesterday was a good day. I stayed on my plan...mostly, which is a mixture of tracking, (writing down everything, which by the way I did not do, but I did it in my head and so I will write it down now) Nutri Systems, Usana shakes and bars, and lots of vegies, and fruits. So for breakfast I had a Usana Shake, (I'm not a distributor so I'm not trying to sell you anything) I love these shakes (and I have tried a lot) because they have 8 grams of fiber and are low glycemic, not to mention tasty and my sister supplies me with them soo....! So the shake - and for lunch I had a nutri system bowl of bean soup with my own stir fryed (in pam) zuccinni because I have 8 or 9 very large zucinni from our garden on the counter and they need to be eaten! I had a few swigs (dangerous) of fat free milk. Yes right from the carton! It is my own. In the afternoon I had a small apple and then remembered I needed to drink and so began my water regimen which means lots of stops at the WC (water closet, potty, latrine whatever.) I had a Usana protein bar at about 4 and then for dinner at 6:30 I had nutrisytem mexican goolash in a tortilla. It was chewy... but mostly tasty. I again had some zuccini, milk and a half of a peach. I had been trying to get out the door to excersize all morning but my husband had lots of things he needed me to do (seemed like a good excuse) but mostly it was because I wanted to ride my bike but didn't want to go down the hill and then have to ride it back up again so I procrastinated until finally I had to take Morgan to soccer, at which time I quickly threw my bike in the Yukon and rode while he practiced. The reason being, it is flat where he practices (by the lake) and I will do more riding than walking and pushing. Wow the little mind games that I go through before the walking, jogging or biking every happens.

When John and I got home from a walk in the evening, Ben and Dinesh had made a beautiful salmon dinner with a mayo sauce,tomatos, and onions on the salmon. It was beautiful, with salad, rice and of all things artichoke hearts marinated in olive oil. I didn't want to be a party pooper and not eat with the family so I sat down and had a very small piece of salmon. I scraped off the sauce, ate the onion and tomato and the salmon. Delicious but probably I shouldn't have. I need to figure out the family schedule better, and try to time my meals to coincide with family meals. Ben and Dinesh and their 4 children are living with us and Dinesh is a great cook! Family meal time is important so I probably need to plan to have my meal with the fam!

The scale: I'm not gonna let this ruin my day but honestly I got on this morning and it said 207.1, Yesterday it was 208.0 so I was so happy. Then I thought well, I have gum in my mouth so I had better take it out. It probably weighs something (I'm not kidding, hey it was early) So I weighed again and it was 208.2. OOOOOHHHHH!! I weighed again and yup 208.2. Wow how could this happen? Well needless to say I am going to go on a walk and then come back and weigh and hopefully there will be a loss! I know we cannot live or die by the scale but this is the measurement that shows weight loss and this is my goal. Breathe, breathe!

I am quite sure I am going to need to pray all day today. I know this sounds trivial but my mood changes so much when I succeed as to when I fail and so I must keep a positive outlook. Faith that I can be helped in all facets of my life, by my Heavenly Father is a great motivator. It is THE motivator. I am so thankful for the scriptures! The very word of a God. How blessed I am to have them. To know that my small and seemingly insignificant life is very significant and important to God is amazing and inspiring to me. That he cares about the sparrows and the lilies of the field, lets me know HE cares about me.

Thanks for all the positive comments! Who knew that anyone looked at my blog. I love you all for caring and appreciate your positive feed back. Don't hesitate to give ideas or suggestions, I want to be teachable. I have tried downloading my picture off my phone but I can't figure it out so when I find my camera a before picture will emerge! And don't worry I won't wear a sports bra. I tried that look on and oh! it was quite indecent. I wouldn't want you to be afraid to go to my blog again so I will be dressed in work out clothes for older larger Mormons=)!!

My goal for today is to write everything down and drink my water throughout the day so that I don't have to guzzle 5 glasses tonight! Have a great Tuesday! Get out and MOVE!